My One and Only

I smiled when I received a sweet email this morning from an old friend which read,      ".. hope Santa finds you and gives you your heart's desire ..."  In the background, I had Adele singing 'One and Only' and if you'd like to hear it, click here. for some soulful background music ...

Ok, she's on about some bloke but, as with many love songs, I often think it can be about my longing for God, for being nothing but Home ... I'm more aware than ever of why John speaks so much about the heart.  About clearing our self out of our heart, about moving, as awareness, to that most tiny little bit we know the truth of in our heart, about openness and softness of heart, about Love ...  

So what might Santa bring me if my friend's wish for me comes true this Christmas?  The kind of Love that that flows naturally when I flip right-side up; true Me ... that's my real One and Only ...

It's nothing but old habits which stop me, those pesky old patterns which, given the right environment, can still kick in, creating an illusory world full of pressure and tension.  It's about noticing with greater finesse now, how the self can sneak back into the hot seat and when it does how everything changes - and not for the better that's for sure!  So, my true heart's desire is clear, so clear and so dear.

Dear Ones, I wish you the same this Christmas, that you receive your true heart's desire.  You know the way.

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti   

The River of Belief

Step into the River of Belief

In moving in unseen realms beyond the norm, I often resonate with John's choice of words which point to those deeper more mysterious levels and also sometimes I come up with my own words - whatever works, basically - and for me right now, it's the expression the river of belief which puts my feet back into the deeper flow of what I Know but do not see with the eyes of the accustomed self.  Even the tiniest bit of relating to this clean, clear, flowing river of goodness, and I'm all in.  Then it's all different and I'm right-side up, as John says.  It really is a flip ...  Any direct contact with John in person and that flip is magnified ten fold.

And how good was Sunday here for us Edmontonians?  First there was a powerful meeting, then a magical wedding and then in the evening, a celebration party with dancing late into the night.  In that intense meeting on Sunday, John spoke of the delicate movement of openness and softness of heart opening your own being and moving into your self.  And then he spoke of how such entrance to your own being isn't like some of the more complex levels of your beingness within the deeper levels of your being. Here are few cosmic snippets:

"The powers within your self,

the unintegrated powers, the powers of will and emotion, 

are reflective of the deeper powers of your own being."'

-JdR 15 December 2013

John went on to describe how we don't come in to these deeper powers until we've integrated our own basic beingness, key to which is openness and softness of heart and a profound okayness within.

"As Greater Reality moves into Reality addressing you,

it moves into the deeper levels of your being, 

the deeper level of your being that it moves through 

brought up into your self,

the more unusual the experience. 

And it moves with a different kind of power,

openness and softnes sof heart being at the base of it,

that being stable, 

deeper powers and deeper abilities

begin to open ..." 

-JdR 15 December 2013

John then explained how those initial stages of opening and softening are of letting and responding, and how, as the deeper levels of your being are being opened and addressed, your relationship to the movement of Greater Reality isn't going to be that of a gentled letting, but will be a direct laying hold...

"There's an immediate entrance, with the use of power 

that enables you to integrate the abilities

that are in the deeper levels of your being.  

In some of the levels that Greater Reality moves through

in your own being, 

all of the power of your being is called forth

and you're moving in all of that power,

without your response in all of that power

there won't be an entrance.

With that level of movement in your own being 

you awaken to moving as the entirety of your being

and not just moving in levels of beingness.

Opening that much, to that depth, 

greatly increases the vulnerability in your self.

In your self you don't want to have that much power,

it's beyond your own comfort zone.

This provokes the greater integration of your self, 

stepping past the kind of self that you're accustomed to 

and no longer being limited to its comfort zone."   

                            
-JdR 15 December 2013

Pretty brilliant and powerful stuff!  And that's plenty to digest ahead of the upcoming Winter Seminar which starts a week this Friday on the 27th December.  For more information on that please click here.

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti 

Under Pressure

Pressure relief anyone?

John sat at my table in the cafe on Sunday and I got to speak with him about the recent huge pressures I've been feeling in my self in dealing with on-going very difficult circumstances.  I spoke to him about the polarity between my self as a work-in-progress (integration) and the Deeper me and how the latter didn't really care at all about surface situations and how my accustomed self doesn't handle things so well and that I felt I could be in the Deep and then sort of represent my self, like an Ambassador.  John confirmed what I'd been discovering and went on to speak about having no middle ground (when I spoke about the process in my self being too slow) and he said how my relationship with my self will change, that I'd not be able to relate to anything like self pity, being a victim, fear or other (little self) emotions. We spoke then of comfort and discomfort for I see it is that which is the old way of relating to the self and it is that relationship with comfort and discomfort which primarily keeps that old relating/accustomed self alive.  I can see that when I go for pressure relief - it is all of that little self, it's always negative to varying degrees and even if it feels uncomfortable, it is a twisted sort of comfort because of going back to the familiar self-modality.  Before this big difficult circumstance entered on the scene, I had been doing quite well, at times staying sharp and in This 24/7 for days on end - yet John pointed out that without such big pressure, you don't get to this point - the death of the old relating to the self.  It really feels like a whole new step I am taking and, whilst I do know the Goodness of it, there is somewhat of a pressure cooker moment within as the distorted patterns of the accustomed self are no longer being given in to, no matter how intense the situation.  It's at times such as this that I am aware of the wonderfulness of having a living Master to speak to directly (and I said as much to John on Sunday).  So good to have him there able to guide us as we navigate all the pitfalls along the way.  If you're not able to be here to receive such individual guidance, at least you can send in a question for John - you know what to do...

 

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

Gearing Up

Get on your bike and cross the desert, just get yourself here ...

Do you realize that the wonderful Winter Seminar with John de Ruiter starts in a little over three weeks? Yes, and I can feel myself gearing up in readiness to receive, to move forward, to imbibe and ingest that other-worldly nourishment which isn't yet so readily available on this planet. Although I cannot attend every meeting, I will be attending most of them and, for once, I'm really ready-making for it ...

Relating from the accustomed small self is becoming increasingly less appealing, yet I can see progress in me on the more subtle realms and of course that's where it counts the most ...

If you are thinking about attending this upcoming Seminar, think no more and simply come!  For more information, click here.

It was good to get away and to be with John in such a different setting and it is another kind of good to be back with him here.  I noticed upon my first meeting back in Edmonton that John is for sure, strongest here in his 'home town.'  I mean that his transmission is the most powerful here.  It's something I've been aware of before but it was good to become aware of that again - an extra bonus from having gone away! 

Thanks to all of those who recently sent in a question for John and I look forward to receiving more in the coming weeks before my next dialogue with him.  You know what to do - just type your question as a 'comment' below - thanks!

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti   
 

Golden Snippets from Israel

The recent Tuval retreat with John in Israel was great and the first snippets I'm going to share with you are from day two when John was speaking of the goodness of opening and softening in the midst of pain ...

 "The value of your past is that you're able to learn from

opening and softening within an instance of your past...

When life touches upon it and brings it up into your body, 

for openness and softness of heart that's a gift...

When something triggers your past it's triggered in your body; 

you are embodying your past...

Your body doesn't belong to your past,

your body belongs to your being.

You embody your past whether you realize it or not...

The deeper the pain, the deeper the level of beingness

that's able to move into your body.

Embodying your own being is you

earning your own being.

Earning your being in your body...

When the deeper levels of your body open

then the deeper levels of your own being are 

physically palpable..."

- John de Ruiter, 15 November 2013, Israel

And these next snippets are from the end of the retreat, on day five:

"It doesn't matter how many times you fall,

what matters is the manner and the speed

with which you get back up."  

"At first you don't know how to be in This,

later you won't know how not to be in This."   

- John de Ruiter, 18 November 2013, Israel

Before I sign off, another gentle reminder to see if you have a question you'd like to send in for John, to post it as a comment below.  I know many of you enjoy the dialogues with him (which I upload as a free podcast) and for them to continue there needs to be a steady supply of questions...

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti  

The Sermon on the Mount

A holy site overlooking the Sea of Galilee

Shalom! At last I can update you from the holy land! The above pic was taken just the other day when I went with some friends to the Sea of Galilee (that's me on the left looking all Middle Eastern). Before we went in for a swim at sunset we visited a peaceful spot overlooking the area which was supposedly a site visited by Jesus, from which he no doubt espoused some wisdom to a group of lucky ones; it definitely had that vibe. And John was also at the same site last year just to up the holy factor but really, after the five day retreat with him at Tuval, we were already steeped in the magic ...

The title of this week's Post was inspired by some of the informal talks John gave at Tuval on a hill top. Seated in his biblical booth (a makeshift shaded area over his chair complete with palm fronds) with us all gathered around him, made me think of the sermon on the mount ...  

In addition to the two formal meetings with John each day, there were so many more informal meetings and gatherings with him that it was almost like each day was one big non-stop meeting!  And the five day retreat was over so fast it made me wonder about the nature of time during meetings with John ... perhaps when we go deep with him, on those other levels, time is... not.  For sure I'm still digesting it all and at the same time I'm enjoying just being here in vibrant, sunny Israel.  I'm meeting new people and doing new things and, as always, applying John's teaching and noticing that when I am coming from what is deeper, it's all so different.  

Dear ones, I must dash, I'm meeting a friend in Tel Aviv for a walk along the beach to Old Jaffa.  Before I sign off, I've received a few questions (emailed directly to me) for John which I'll post soon - but as always, if you have a question for him don't hesitate to post it as a comment below.

Until next time,
Love 
Shanti

A Brief Sojourn

I'm off to Israel!

I had an altogether different Post planned for today, but this morning a fresh breeze caught my sails and I found myself thinking about spontaneously going to Israel and attending the retreat there with John... And much to my surprise, I have booked a ticket, almost packed my bags, and I leave in the wee hours... So for this week it's a short Post because I've got no time to do more ... with any luck I'll be able to access cyber space from Israel next week and I can keep you post-ed...

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti 

Difficult

difficult

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adjective

adjective: difficult

1.

 needing much effort or skill to accomplish, deal with, or understand.

"she had a difficult decision to make"

 

The above definition was a cut and paste direct from a Google search I did just now. Yes, life has presented me with some rather humungous difficulties of late and I've been using all of my resources in dealing with that.  John's teaching, to soften in the midst of difficulty is good advice, for sure, and I've been doing that over and over.  But, it is a tad complicated and as such, softening only goes so far ... as it says above, "she had a difficult decision to make" - yeah, it's more like that.  So I do soften, and that helps me to stay open and not get caught up in hard and reactive thoughts, but it's the discerning what to do about it part of things which is actually the most challenging ...  I know it's ok to feel pain, and the lovely okness of beingness is always there, the silent undercurrent no matter what, but stuff needs to get sorted out! And there's not as much power available to me under the circumstances to affect such sorting, even when the clarity is shining.  Ah well, John's back from overseas at the end of the week so maybe he can help me sort things out.

 

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti 

The 100th Post!

Woo-hoo! One hundred! And to celebrate, YES - the latest dialogue with John is up! To hear it, click right here!

None of the dialogues would occur without you sending in your great questions for John, so please keep 'em coming . . you know what to do. . .

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti   

Podcasts Old and New

Dear ones, I have some good news and some slightly less good news. The good news is that the new podcast is ready to upload!  But... there are some technical difficulties in doing so, and as such I cannot do it today - but I'm hoping to be able to do it tomorrow... And to tide you over, I thought I'd offer the link to enable you to review some of the older dialogues with John.  To listen to them, just click here.              

So I'm sorry the new one is still not up, but I am pretty sure I can upload it tomorrow, so tune back in for a mid-week post especially for that!

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti  

Honesty

 First up, apologies for this Post being a day late and also, concerning the latest podcast, unfortunately it is still in the works - but the plan is to have it ready by next Tuesday.

It's been a big week, following on the heels of a pretty big Seminar.  There is a lot about John's teaching that I truly love, especially when he speaks about the truth of what we know in our heart.  For me that is an on-going process of discernment and cutting edge honesty.  It's easy to overlook certain things in ourselves or in others because it's more convenient and comfortable that way.  And often, clear Seeing is painful and the follow-through can certainly be disruptive to those comforts.  But thankfully I do enjoy Seeing more than what I see and in that as the saying goes, the truth does indeed set you free, even if it appears to come at a cost.  Whatever you have to pay it's well worth the price.
 
I'm fairly certain next time you check in there will be the latest dialogue with John available for you to listen to - it's a good one, for sure.  And as always please type any question you have for John in the 'comments' below.

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti   

The Love Seminar

John de Ruiter

... mmm ... this deeply divine Autumn Seminar has been, to me, The Love Seminar ... From day one I felt what John was doing was on a whole other level from anything he's put out before.  And his teaching has been incredibly profound and so LOVEly ... 
Of course, here are some Golden Snippets, all from that magical Day one!

"As your self is purified your behaviour

is freed of gain and loss.

Freeing the continuity of meaning

into your behaviour..."

"When you remain in openness and softness of heart 

while your self is opening and softening, 

your behaviour opens and softens ...

Change becomes the continuity of meaning

in free flow."

"Awareness, one with Knowing, loves."

"Oneness relating is love."

"Love cannot comprehend fear."

"Love is the continuity of meaning moving."

JdR DAY 1 - 10 Oct 2013

My favourite moment thus far, was when he was speaking to a questioner about This, using the analogy water and of being in it in different ways such as diving or floating.  When the questioner asked him to say more about the water he simply said, " ...mmm ..." in a most inviting tone.

Similar to what he said about Love on day one of the Seminar, at a party on Sunday night, when asked what love is, John answered, "the movement of meaning."  Yes, we can each access such movement as we open and soften in our hearts, move more deeply within and let the love flow ... And then there's the love between two beings and two hearts ...  I loved John's words to the angelic couple in the Chair yesterday:

"Live finding each other in what you haven't found yet.

Seeing each other in a way that you haven't yet seen."*

  "You live on the cutting edge of coming together."

 *

"Two hearts in a state of flux to what's new."

  *

"Together unroll each other."

  *

"To meet is to be unrolled.

That kind of relationship is one of poetry."

JdR 14 Oct 2013

Looking at John during these meetings embodying his teaching and demonstrating it so clearly, is a real delight and a true gift.

Before I sign off, I've not forgotten about uploading the recent dialogue with him and there's a chance it'll be ready for next week's post - I'll do my best!

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti   

John the Vanguard

John de Ruiter in Nordegg, 2013

For sure John is leading in something entirely profound and on Friday I loved hearing him say:

"You know I am your

deepest cutting edge."

JdR 4 October 2013

Indeed he is and he was in fine form over the weekend.  Here are a few more favourite Golden snippets:

"Feed that undomesticated

depth of power..."

  JdR 4 October 2013

"This world isn't a manifestation of reality; 
it's a manifestation of the common level of belief, 

which moves it and sustains it,

protects it from change."

JdR 7 October 2013

"When you are in your heart

that touches someone else's heart."

JdR 7 October 2013

John's wisdom is definitely food for the soul, attested by my recent dialogue with him which I will be endeavouring to get in uploaded a.s.a.p. so you can hear him speaking about a range of subjects from subconscious beliefs to the different levels of sex... But for all John's super being ability to touch what is deeper in us with his words, it is tiny compared to being present with him in person, whether he speaks or not.  If you resonate with John's teaching and have a sincere desire for true awakening, but have yet to meet him in person, I encourage you to make it happen.  To meet such a true master is not an opportunity to be squandered.  Click here to check out John's schedule.  And don't forget the sure-to-be awesome Autumn Seminar begins this Thursday... see you there?

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti  

Live, Love and Laugh ...

There's been a lot distracting me this past week from what, under such circumstances, is tiny.  And yet I love that tiny the most ...

Not all of the distractions have been difficult however, some have been quite fun.  Like planning costumes for myself and others for New Year's Eve ... And that's really fine, I don't need to heap more pressure on myself with a no-fun  rule ...  

In fact one of the good things coming out of the pressure is that I'm clear not to make things worse.  In that, the basics always work; to soften and relax inside, but wonderfully I've also tapped into a stream of real lightheartedness. At times, to be able to laugh is as good as the quieter more serious-looking goodness of the Deep -  they're both a God-send.

Perhaps it's all that light blazing from John in the meetings which has me lightening up..?  By the way, my dialogue with him got postponed and is now scheduled for the end of this  week - and many thanks to all those who sent in questions!

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti