My One and Only

I smiled when I received a sweet email this morning from an old friend which read,      ".. hope Santa finds you and gives you your heart's desire ..."  In the background, I had Adele singing 'One and Only' and if you'd like to hear it, click here. for some soulful background music ...

Ok, she's on about some bloke but, as with many love songs, I often think it can be about my longing for God, for being nothing but Home ... I'm more aware than ever of why John speaks so much about the heart.  About clearing our self out of our heart, about moving, as awareness, to that most tiny little bit we know the truth of in our heart, about openness and softness of heart, about Love ...  

So what might Santa bring me if my friend's wish for me comes true this Christmas?  The kind of Love that that flows naturally when I flip right-side up; true Me ... that's my real One and Only ...

It's nothing but old habits which stop me, those pesky old patterns which, given the right environment, can still kick in, creating an illusory world full of pressure and tension.  It's about noticing with greater finesse now, how the self can sneak back into the hot seat and when it does how everything changes - and not for the better that's for sure!  So, my true heart's desire is clear, so clear and so dear.

Dear Ones, I wish you the same this Christmas, that you receive your true heart's desire.  You know the way.

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti   

The River of Belief

Step into the River of Belief

In moving in unseen realms beyond the norm, I often resonate with John's choice of words which point to those deeper more mysterious levels and also sometimes I come up with my own words - whatever works, basically - and for me right now, it's the expression the river of belief which puts my feet back into the deeper flow of what I Know but do not see with the eyes of the accustomed self.  Even the tiniest bit of relating to this clean, clear, flowing river of goodness, and I'm all in.  Then it's all different and I'm right-side up, as John says.  It really is a flip ...  Any direct contact with John in person and that flip is magnified ten fold.

And how good was Sunday here for us Edmontonians?  First there was a powerful meeting, then a magical wedding and then in the evening, a celebration party with dancing late into the night.  In that intense meeting on Sunday, John spoke of the delicate movement of openness and softness of heart opening your own being and moving into your self.  And then he spoke of how such entrance to your own being isn't like some of the more complex levels of your beingness within the deeper levels of your being. Here are few cosmic snippets:

"The powers within your self,

the unintegrated powers, the powers of will and emotion, 

are reflective of the deeper powers of your own being."'

-JdR 15 December 2013

John went on to describe how we don't come in to these deeper powers until we've integrated our own basic beingness, key to which is openness and softness of heart and a profound okayness within.

"As Greater Reality moves into Reality addressing you,

it moves into the deeper levels of your being, 

the deeper level of your being that it moves through 

brought up into your self,

the more unusual the experience. 

And it moves with a different kind of power,

openness and softnes sof heart being at the base of it,

that being stable, 

deeper powers and deeper abilities

begin to open ..." 

-JdR 15 December 2013

John then explained how those initial stages of opening and softening are of letting and responding, and how, as the deeper levels of your being are being opened and addressed, your relationship to the movement of Greater Reality isn't going to be that of a gentled letting, but will be a direct laying hold...

"There's an immediate entrance, with the use of power 

that enables you to integrate the abilities

that are in the deeper levels of your being.  

In some of the levels that Greater Reality moves through

in your own being, 

all of the power of your being is called forth

and you're moving in all of that power,

without your response in all of that power

there won't be an entrance.

With that level of movement in your own being 

you awaken to moving as the entirety of your being

and not just moving in levels of beingness.

Opening that much, to that depth, 

greatly increases the vulnerability in your self.

In your self you don't want to have that much power,

it's beyond your own comfort zone.

This provokes the greater integration of your self, 

stepping past the kind of self that you're accustomed to 

and no longer being limited to its comfort zone."   

                            
-JdR 15 December 2013

Pretty brilliant and powerful stuff!  And that's plenty to digest ahead of the upcoming Winter Seminar which starts a week this Friday on the 27th December.  For more information on that please click here.

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti 

Under Pressure

Pressure relief anyone?

John sat at my table in the cafe on Sunday and I got to speak with him about the recent huge pressures I've been feeling in my self in dealing with on-going very difficult circumstances.  I spoke to him about the polarity between my self as a work-in-progress (integration) and the Deeper me and how the latter didn't really care at all about surface situations and how my accustomed self doesn't handle things so well and that I felt I could be in the Deep and then sort of represent my self, like an Ambassador.  John confirmed what I'd been discovering and went on to speak about having no middle ground (when I spoke about the process in my self being too slow) and he said how my relationship with my self will change, that I'd not be able to relate to anything like self pity, being a victim, fear or other (little self) emotions. We spoke then of comfort and discomfort for I see it is that which is the old way of relating to the self and it is that relationship with comfort and discomfort which primarily keeps that old relating/accustomed self alive.  I can see that when I go for pressure relief - it is all of that little self, it's always negative to varying degrees and even if it feels uncomfortable, it is a twisted sort of comfort because of going back to the familiar self-modality.  Before this big difficult circumstance entered on the scene, I had been doing quite well, at times staying sharp and in This 24/7 for days on end - yet John pointed out that without such big pressure, you don't get to this point - the death of the old relating to the self.  It really feels like a whole new step I am taking and, whilst I do know the Goodness of it, there is somewhat of a pressure cooker moment within as the distorted patterns of the accustomed self are no longer being given in to, no matter how intense the situation.  It's at times such as this that I am aware of the wonderfulness of having a living Master to speak to directly (and I said as much to John on Sunday).  So good to have him there able to guide us as we navigate all the pitfalls along the way.  If you're not able to be here to receive such individual guidance, at least you can send in a question for John - you know what to do...

 

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

Gearing Up

Get on your bike and cross the desert, just get yourself here ...

Do you realize that the wonderful Winter Seminar with John de Ruiter starts in a little over three weeks? Yes, and I can feel myself gearing up in readiness to receive, to move forward, to imbibe and ingest that other-worldly nourishment which isn't yet so readily available on this planet. Although I cannot attend every meeting, I will be attending most of them and, for once, I'm really ready-making for it ...

Relating from the accustomed small self is becoming increasingly less appealing, yet I can see progress in me on the more subtle realms and of course that's where it counts the most ...

If you are thinking about attending this upcoming Seminar, think no more and simply come!  For more information, click here.

It was good to get away and to be with John in such a different setting and it is another kind of good to be back with him here.  I noticed upon my first meeting back in Edmonton that John is for sure, strongest here in his 'home town.'  I mean that his transmission is the most powerful here.  It's something I've been aware of before but it was good to become aware of that again - an extra bonus from having gone away! 

Thanks to all of those who recently sent in a question for John and I look forward to receiving more in the coming weeks before my next dialogue with him.  You know what to do - just type your question as a 'comment' below - thanks!

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti