An Unfamiliar Ease

Firstly sorry this is a day late, my internet at home is down!  The title of today's Post is in reference to my time in the Chair with John on Monday evening where I spoke of a new kind of pressure inside and John reaffirmed that I need no recourse or relief.  He spoke to me of an ease that has nothing to do with my past - which I instantly knew.  Afterwards, I put it together for myself as an unfamiliar ease … it's like an ever-fresh, new, clear, clean stream.  Existence was quick to present me with a strong difficulty the very next day, and which I'm still dealing with, in which to employ this new ease in my living.  So, in the midst of the feelings of tension and concern which have been getting triggered in my system, there it is - that new taste - the quiet and lovely stream.  I see it's a fine line to not be wanting the relief of feeling better and needing such ease in the midst of pressure or difficulty.  Indeed, this ease which has nothing to do with my past, (and therefore nothing to do with my accustomed self or any story), this ease is actually full of knowledge.  It's not the kind of knowledge easily translated into words or understanding in the way we customarily understand things.  It is of a higher order, a whole other level of okness, a stream of unfamiliar-but-known ease in which I am learning to move as I simultaneously go about doing what I can do on the surface, to practically take care of what needs taking care of.  

During my time in the Chair with John on Monday, I acknowledged the uniqueness of what he is able to provide and how my deep inner hunger for ultimate Truth can only be fed in such a meeting with him.  

In this other-worldly ease I see there is little (no) room for self concerns.  I see I'm available then for something much grander, quite beyond my little self.  This ease answers me and I see my system naturally calms down as I attune to it and I feel myself then to be in another Realm … right here, in this world, in my life, in a difficulty made so much easier in a true way, a way far beyond where the difficulty is happening. 

For those of you wondering about the most recent dialogue with John, I anticipate being able to upload it within the week and will once again do a special mid-week Post if need be to get it out there.  

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti