The Winds of Change...

Yes it's time for something new - and that is, finally, my new website!  This is officially the last post on the old site, as from now on all my Blog posts will be on the new website (where you will also find all the old posts from when I first started blogging back in February 2012 - that's a lot of posts!)  As you will see when you click on the link below, the new website is not only a place to share my writing but is also a place to share my art.

Here's the link: click right here!

See you there!
Love,
Shanti

The Frustration Invitation

Like most people I find myself pretty busy these days, even whilst on school summer holidays from Knowledge College.  And I love how such busyness affords multi-levelled opportunities for stepping up - in all the ways that we Know the truth of.   That can be very practical, such as eating food according to what would be good as opposed to letting eating be governed by want feelings.  And living life applying John's teaching also means that continuous noticing of where we are coming from, relaxing and staying open.   From there, loving what we Know the truth of in our hearts opens the door to unlimited potential in terms of letting our own Being govern our way of being in this life.  When we notice ourselves becoming frustrated, that's simply an indication of a wrong orientation and it's actually such a wonderful invitation to soften right there and to let go of what it is that we're believing that we need to go our own way.  The real truth is that there is only one way and that's the way you quietly Know the truth of within.  

Whilst on this school break, I've been enjoying listening to old John de Ruiter tapes on my stereo whilst working away in my art studio and it's a great way to keep in touch with his teaching.  As ever, I find John's teaching to be simply supreme, inviting everything in us that's upside-down to turn right-side up.  That's all about bringing the deep right up to the surface - and in that, seeing that any hint of frustration is really an invitation...

Until next time,
and YES the new website is imminent (really!) 
Love,
Shanti

Encouragement

Dear ones, how's it going?  How has it been for you this past week?  And by the way I want to say a special 'hi' to whomever is reading my Blog (pretty extensively) in Russia!  Yes I know - I can see it on the stat's!  Wherever you are,  in digging deeper within and overcoming negative thoughts and feelings caused by the pressure of being in this world, you're not alone!

In exploring what it is to travel deeper within, it's clearly much easier to do so alone in the middle of the night than it is in the midst of this crazy old world (during the day) - but it's good to do both I reckon.  Whilst different environments are naturally going to produce different experiences, it's all valid; always worth moving deeper within than the surface, because that deeper orientation to what is True within then guides our outer forms and behaviour; this is how it works.  I've been seeing once again how any sort of closing within my own system, any reaction towards another (because of them being in reaction for example) only puts me in the same, and it's simply not my love, it's not true to be that way - and such moments are an opportunity.  For it is then that the road, so to speak, is presented right there when the old tendency would be to close and harden my heart - I can instead simply walk that road .. all differently.  To all of you who are reading this and who are doing the same, I want to say to you right now that it's truly wonderful that you are doing it, that you continue to pick yourself up and keep going gently forward, opening and softening in the midst of this world which isn't like our own Beings.   You're not alone; we're all in this together and each time we are being and doing what we Know - that which is all deeper than the accustomed self and this world (and so lovely!) - we are truly helping to make everything so much better even if we're not seeing immediate results ...  keep going, it's so good.

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti   :)

Doing your best

For those of us with a strong orientation to live a somewhat deeper life - i.e. not be completely absorbed by the Matrix, forever running around trying to find satisfaction from something outside of us - we do of course still have that surface existence to take care of.  Whilst it may not be what is most important in one's daily life, what we choose to do in this world presents all sorts of challenges as well as opportunities.   I've got a quote on my fridge, taken from an old John de Ruiter tape, which says:

"Being true within

while doing your very best without."

To me, being true within does need to come first and that's all about a deeper orientation; having an open heart and relaxing amidst the craziness of this world and not buying into the Matrix of illusion and tension.  After that, there's the practical necessities such as taking care of your physical body, your home and so forth and how to earn the money which we all need in order to live in this world.   In all of this, it's so key to keep moving forward and not to give up or get disheartened by the difficulties and challenges we face.  For me, it's been challenging trying to get my new website up - yes, it's still on its way! - but I see that such challenges also help me to grow and apply the truth of John's teaching in a practical way - it's where the rubber hits the road so to speak; without the road, there's no traction...  With so much to take care of, there's so much opportunity to keep moving forward and stepping up wherever we see we can do better.  Living life with integrity and applying that honesty in everything that is ours to take care of - that will put a real smile on your face and in your heart too ... 

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti

The Warrior's Walk

The Summer Seminar here at Knowledge College has now ended, leaving us to put into practice all that we've learned so far.  And whilst it's wonderful to listen to John's words of wisdom and to be imbued with his strong transmission of the Truth, it's quite another opportunity to face the coming weeks of no meetings with a warrior's walk.  It is one thing to walk this world in the way we've been conditioned to walk it, blindly believing the matrix of illusion so ingrained within and without, but to believe instead only what we most deeply know the truth of, is to walk a different path indeed.  This is true whether you are here attending Knowledge College or living elsewhere.  As John spoke during Saturday's evening meeting:

"Give everything to your unseen existence."  

To me, the difference between the illusion constantly presented by living in this world and the real truth within has never been more starkly contrasted, more clear.  As this world continues to move in ways that bring us challenges and experiences of difficulty, the way to walk it is increasingly dissimilar and all unseen.  The warrior's walk is done through what we know is true within and is so different to this world and our wrongly conditioned way of perceiving.  In not relating to life in that old conditioned way - most easily noticed by tension within the physical body and negative thoughts or emotions - we can move instead only according to that subtle and altogether different way of being within.

  "The way within is how you be in your self and your person.

Not informed by this world,

not informed by your sense of self and your past,

not informed by any teaching,

not informed by a learning;

                    informed by you, Knowing."  (JdR, Day 6, Sat 2 July).

In aligning with John's transmission, we are more easily acquainted with this different way of perceiving - that of Knowing - but even if we're not being supported by such a strong transmission, we still Know, still love that quiet resonance of truth within.
Believe what you Know - not the matrix - and know that you are not alone in your warrior's walk.  Every time you align within to that quiet inner yes to what you Know, you are holding hands with your unseen and perhaps as yet unmet brothers and sisters all walking in that same golden light.  The warrior's walk helps not only in your own evolution but that of this planet and far beyond.  Wherever you may be, keep choosing Knowing and give nothing to negativity - you, so quietly, know better.

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

Incomprehensible to an artificial world

The title of this week's post comes directly from John during last night's evening meeting, mid-way through the Summer Seminar here at Knowledge College.  It was part of a beautiful talk where he was speaking of the same richness of  Being and not to the surface illusory self which, like this world, relates to gain and loss so differently to how our Being relates.  John exemplifies the truth of this profound teaching, as we see him being that constant openness towards everyone - producing that same beautiful richness of Being.

I'll give you some more quotes directly, but I just want to say too that this Seminar is highly unusual with John's transmission being stronger again and much finer.  I think it was the last seminar when I spoke of the roof coming off here - well in any case, since day one of this seminar, it's not only the roof, but the walls and the floor too - as what is being opened up here by John enables unlimited access now to all that is beyond this world.  Yes, unfathomable to this world and to the self programmed not to see beyond it.  But now the gates are open - come out of the box en masse!

            "What you are one with, you are."    (day 7)

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"The sense of self

doesn't belong to the self,

           it belongs exclusively to the Being."   (day 8)

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"The Being just freely moves

within the sense of self.

Any presence within gain is the Being,

any presence within loss is the Being

          - flourishing within any given path."   (day 8)

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"It is the difference between

the 'I' belonging to it's self

or the 'I' belonging to what it Knows.

The Knowing is inclusive of all the levels.

The self is inclusive of the person and it's life

                     and nothing deeper."              (day 8)

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"Instead of gain revealing

how much you get of what you like,

gain reveals how deep you go;

gain reveals your Being

              - and loss, equally so."       (day 8) 

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"All the way through

           there is no good, but you."   (day 8)

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"Weighted because it's given form,

it's lived, in form.

Particularly within an environment 

that isn't like that yet.

            This goodness has no opposite."    (day 8)

;

There is really, only what we Know, but it takes that subtle shift of awareness to that which is all deeper than the conditioned self belonging to the programme of this world, for us to See and to be what we truly are.  When we stop relating to the pervasive illusory sense of that little self, we perceive everything so differently, perceiving through what we Know is true and not what this world has told us is true.  It's like seeing with your heart and not through the veils of illusion which, by the way, are most definitely being systematically removed! About time, too.

Before I sign off today a word about the new website which is about to be born.  It's going to be bigger and there will be more to look at, but for those who simply enjoy reading my weekly blog posts, they will all be there on the new website (over four and a half years' worth!) and the weekly posts will continue just the same.  It's coming super soon!

Until next time, (come out of the box, en masse!)

Love,

Shanti

Magical, fantastical, timely and true!

The Summer Seminar is off to a sparkling start here at Knowledge College this year with John's transmission during last night's meeting (day one) being noticeably thicker.  It's such an interesting unseen thing, his transmission; it's kind of everything in This and thus perhaps worth me expanding upon somewhat.  Unseen to the accustomed way of looking, in order to perceive it you need first to relax and become most quieted and gentled inside, attuning as awareness to what is customarily overlooked.  For although his transmission is clearly powerful, (just ask those who go to the Chair), in order to fully perceive and receive it we must first attune, as awareness, to what is most subtle.  Once you're in a stream of a deeper level within and particularly one that is attuned to John's powerful transmission during a seminar, it is then somewhat describable although it's other worldliness makes it difficult to do so adequately.  The more gone you are as awareness into such a transmission, the more of a challenge it can be to say anything about it at all, kind of like being awestruck by being in a magical place we simply don't have any language for.  It's substance is like a thick unseen plasma, nectarful energy able to be consumed only via directly relating to it; direct knowledge of it.  I see how John masterfully multi-tasks in This, working directly both with the questioner in the Chair, the room as a whole and more.  Last night, one of the questioners likened what she was seeing as she looked at John as him being "like a star" - yes, deeper seeing means you cannot help but see him radiating a light far beyond this world. 

With our own sun being itself a star at the heart of our solar system, it's influence extending far beyond our own planet and without which there'd be no life on this Earth, so too I see how John's light encoded transmission gives such marvelous unseen energy to all on this planet and far beyond, transmitting Higher Knowledge full of transcendental Love.  For those of us here participating in this year's Summer Seminar, we are the front line recipients of  such sparkling new information, the ingestion of which, whilst it includes our own selves and physical systems, continues to move and to ripple out throughout this world and far beyond - moving what is unseen into the seen and transforming all.  Magical, fantastical, timely and true!  And so powerful.   Paradoxically when we attune as awareness into those subtle all deeper and other worldly streams of Higher Knowledge & Love it's all pretty normal - 'cos when you're in that kind of unseen substance, that's all you know and all you breathe, all there truly is.  For those of us in love with Truth, there's nothing quite like it is there?  You don't see it with accustomed eyes, you won't know it through accustomed thoughts and feelings, but you can always know it directly when you become gentled, quieted and go deeper within.  And whilst some have more of a challenge discerning what is all deeper within than the accustomed self and this world, even during such a seminar as this, for all of us everywhere there is always the tiny little bit that you do know the truth of in your heart - always restful, smiling, simple.

If you're here for this seminar, relax, enjoy, attune to the subtle and continue to do so even after you exit those doors at the back of the hall.  It's summer here, time to radiate - what we receive from John's transmission, what we gently, quietly and truly love the most, what we Know...

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

Rumi to the rescue

"Knock and he'll open the door.

Vanish and he'll make you

shine like the sun.

Fall and he'll raise you

to the heavens.

Become nothing

and he'll turn you into everything."

Ah, nothing like some quintessential Rumi to set me straight for the day.  Here's some more sweet nourishment from him:

"I am not this hair,

I am not this skin,

I am the soul that lies within."

And one more side dish from Rumi:

"Don't you know yet?

It is your light

that lights the worlds."

Such words are indeed food for the soul, reminders of what we are, liberating us from confining beliefs about who we appear to be in this life.  It is our light that lights the worlds! and to shine that light we must recondition all that we have whilst in form, right here in this dark old world which can use all the light it can get.  And more help is at hand for those of us here about to embark upon the journey that is this year's Summer Seminar with John here at Knowledge College, click here for more info.  John's transmission is a shining gateway to all that is beyond this world - and in aligning with that altogether higher frequency, we also can remember what it is to shine ...

Before I sign off today, guess what?  The new website is imminent!  Yes I know I've said such before, but no, really, it is!  I'll do a special post when it's up.

Until next time, (shine on)

Love,

Shanti

Different Environments

Last night's meeting with John was truly awesome. What made it so was predominantly his powerful transmission, which grew stronger as the meeting progressed.  I also enjoyed hearing him speak of being in this world and in this life in a way that's so different from the accustomed and conditioned ways of being here.  He spoke of having no self entitlement for such things as a happy relationship or indeed "a happy anything."  He spoke that being what we really are is not a state or an experience and of having a deep OKness in the midst of any inner or outer happy or unhappy environment:

                                         "Happy is she who needs no happiness.

Put her in happiness or unhappiness

and she is still richly the same."

It was the kind of meeting in which I almost could not move at times, let alone take notes.  His transmission was of such light-encoded Higher Knowledge that I could barely keep up on those all deeper subtle levels.  For me such a meeting is what it's all about, with John's powerful transmission enabling such altogether Higher Knowledge far beyond this world, available - richly so.  And he spoke more of being what we really are in the midst of happiness or unhappiness; being as our own Being in the midst of such changing circumstances:

"Different environments

bring out different regions of it.

In that way environments are all revealers.

For you to really get to know

what you really are,

you need first to be what you really are

and then you need a full cross-section

of environments for you to be in -

and they all keep revealing you."

John's transmission was getting stronger and stronger - talk about 'different environments' - wow!  And as the meeting continued, he invited the questioner deeper into what he was opening and being:

"I am the same

in any kind of heaven or hell

and into This, you're welcome."

As the questioner responded and moved into more of that unseen deeper and nourishing space that John was providing last night, she expressed that sense of merging with him, to which he replied:

"Then we set sail in happy or unhappy waters

- they are not ours.

The more we move through them

the more we Know."

The environment which John made available in last night's meeting was so awesome that to me, it's like making the impossible possible.  It can seem so impossible to be as our own Being in this distorted and difficult world with similarly distorted conditioning, but John is living proof that we can undo it all.  Through openness and softness of heart, moving through the changing weather within and without, we can truly come to know the deeper level abilities we have.  Such depths within that provide tender OKness in any storm, any difficulty, revealing our true and wonderful real nature, our own Being, with all it's marvellous levels and regions.  Life is full of opportunity to awaken to such unveiling; to realize what we truly are.  The experience of going through the pain and surface suffering is understandably difficult, but in opening and softening and moving deeper within to that subtle tiny little bit, we are always able to be OK as is - and more.  With that 'more', as John wonderfully showed us again last night, being potentially truly awesome.

Before I sign off, for those of you in the USA, you might like to know that he is jetting off to San Francisco today for three days of open mic meetings.  Click here to find out where and when you can meet John in person.  It's a wonderful opportunity to experience his presence and of course ask any questions you may have about your life, the truth - anything!

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti

Ever so quiet, utterly simple

Greetings from the no longer frozen north, for it's definitely summer over here!  Wherever you may be, living in this world means life continues to have it's on-going challenges, as things just don't seem to be letting up much on the surface do they?  With that surface level being about this world and also the level of self that is conditioned to belong to this world.  Increasingly, I find I love belonging to what is so clearly not of this world at all and to belong increasingly solely to what is my all deeper and unseen true citizenship.  It's the only place to be amidst this on-going craziness.  Loving the truth is the only real way to handle this continuous pressure; being willing for things to not go right on the surface and softening into what is altogether more lovely within - even when that seems to have nothing whatsoever to do with the circumstance or difficult situation.  In putting that quiet, simple love of what I Know is true first, I'm able to face this world with something altogether different.'

So when it's difficult we can soften within and realize what's not of that difficult experience; what is ever so quiet and utterly simple and so lovely within.  Really, I see that things will still go however they're gonna go on the surface, but at least in saying yes to my own inner peacefulness in the midst of the difficulties and challenges, I can feel that I'm living rightside up - and then I see that helps everything, secondarily.  It's the only way to be, the only thing to love (it includes all other loves), to relate to and belong to - then life can feel crazy but you can be sane (though you might look like the crazy one because we live in a madhouse).

Wonderfully, John's back soon and meetings resume on Friday - mmm ... time to bask in that which we do Know but which John makes so much more available...

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

Challenging Times and the Love of the Truth

Dear ones, how's it going? It seems that for many of us, myself included, we are going through some difficult and challenging times.   It's when the pressure is on that our old patterns kick in and that's the opportunity, although the experience feels terrible.  And yet in going deeper within this past week, I have discovered again, the absolute wonderfulness within the terribleness.  Let me share with you the main pattern currently being undone by me which is like two sides of the same coin.  If this coin had a name it would be called 'taking things personally.'  On one side are thoughts and feelings which would have me believe I'm some sort of victim (and believing such thoughts/feelings is quite depressing) and on the other side it's just as bad; anger (and after a flare up of that I feel bad in a different way).  Fun pattern that one, not.  Believing either side hurts; it hurts my own self, my system/body, it hurts others and it kind of poisons the very atmosphere (the unseen vibes and levels).  The thing is and this is what I really want to share with you, none of it is true, none of it is true (it's worth repeating).  Such illusory thoughts and beliefs are based on a level of 'I' that simply does not really exist; its only a pattern and it's in the system; it's partly genetic and it can all be undone right here and right now - it's all an inside job, that's the opportunity.  Instead of believing such a pattern, feeling terrible and then striving for some release via outer happiness and thus some relief from that pressure and difficulty - no, no, the answer is within and only within! (and besides, outer surface happiness is fleeting and superficial).   Instead, it's so deeply good to relax and let go of the tension, and in letting go of tension, we can relax into that wonderful tiny little bit that we always know the truth of that is always there and which we quietly know is somehow everything.  It's everything because it's all that is truly deeply real; it's you, it's me, it's the truth!  In not taking that illusory conditioned and even embodied level of 'I' to heart, we can move beyond it to what we know in our heart that is all deeper and not understood; there's no concept; there's no words, no thinking to get you there; it's there already, it's an altogether different orientation and when you are more gentled and quieted, you Know it.  Without relaxing you cannot know it, if you are busy believing crappy thoughts (that two-sided coin) you cannot see what is true and real and oh, so good.  It is so good to make that shift, it's everything and, secondarily, it makes you truly happy.  I have been so happy this week whenever I have moved beyond that old conditioning and that happiness is so real and it reminds me of when I was a small child, so playful and free to love.  How different, how wonderful - and of course the 'terribleness' is still there but in making that shift, I am relating so differently to such challenges that it no longer feels terrible at all, it's just something to take care of and do what I can.  Because another secondary benefit which comes from making that beautifully simple, subtle and tiny shift, is that the real me is so much more capable of handling it all!  Amazing - how much power we truly have when we soften into what is so quiet, so tiny, that it seems like nothing in the face of believing that illusory coin, that pattern of victim/anger - not me, not you and not true!

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

Expansion and movement

Here at Knowledge College we've been lapping up John and his transmission, with an extra meeting tonight and then one more on Friday before he heads off to Sweden and then on to Denmark, (click here for details). 

I loved John's transmission last night, in which he opened up the deep so vastly it was as wide as the cosmos itself.  It is this kind of unseen learning and higher knowledge that makes it all worthwhile, allowing the possibility to awaken to what we truly are.  Increasingly for me that is all about expansion and movement, for in the deeper levels awareness moves in the unseen in such new and exquisite ways, with the potential and possibilities being literally endless.  In the meetings, John's a portal to all that, with his transmission magnifying those deeper levels and subsequent all different laws of movement and discovery.  On the surface, things are somewhat chaotic in my life, matching the unremitting outer worldly chaos.  Understanding the levels within and without make it somewhat easier to be in all of it; with the knowledge of where best to have one's feet, so to speak, being increasingly important.  With that being all about what you most deeply and quietly Know and not the surface level appearance of things.

If you're able to be with John overseas in the coming weeks, enjoy it, imbibe it, digest it, love it!  And if, like me, you get to stay home and 'guard the nest' awaiting our master's return, there is always homework; cutting edges; our individual and collective 'next's.'  For as separate as we seem to be, we're all in this together are we not?

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

What you really care about

Sometimes lately I've noticed a fed-up attitude on the surface level of my self which says 'I don't care' and there's a kind of letting go of concern in that - but it's not very real or honest!  On a deeper level of my self, attuned to my own Being, I do care - but it's all different when I'm honest to that deeper level.  Then I'm in service to what I know in my heart and not what I think and feel on the surface level of my self.

That's all I've got time to share with you today - it's movie night at Knowledge College!

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

Ready for more?

Thank goodness John's back this weekend!  Although I've been getting on with the application of his teaching in my daily life, there's nothing like having the master back home, not only to exemplify the Truth, but he makes it all look so easy too.  And just being in his presence makes it easier to be True - that magical osmosis! Whilst he's been away I enjoyed tuning in online and here's a few snippets for you now, from the live broadcast from the Netherlands on Sunday (11am Alberta time):

"If you let your Being-filled heart

up into your face,

you will create."

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"Every condition makes you flourish,

from the worst to the loveliest."

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"When you're in it,

it isn't tiny, it's everything."

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"It opens as you do."

Time for us Edmontonians to dust off our satchels and get ready for more Knowledge College.  We might have only barely digested the download from the Spring Seminar but you know what's coming don't you?  More.

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti

Complete in the Mmm ...

It seems to me like this world continues to be squeezed , with ensuing continued and increasing pressures of daily life, for all of us living in it.  And as life becomes more hectic and there's less time to do more things, there is, as always, only one place to be - that tiny lovely little bit we know the truth of in our hearts (without necessarily understanding what that is).  It's ever more important nowadays to soften and open, as all that pressure blows our cover on subconscious patterns, making life seem so difficult in our experience at times and with the softening and opening within allowing a beautiful relinquishing of the hold we once had on such patterns.

I love seeing how much John embodies the truth he speaks and it was good on the weekend to tune in to some of the live broadcasts from Israel.  Here's a few snippets for you, from Saturday's open mic gathering (10am Alberta time), when the questioner was asking John about being complete:

"If you look for something

in your self or in your life

you separate from what you really are."

He went on to elaborate that, from the perspective of the self, it seems like nothing, but it's as simple as relaxing into what you know in your heart, where nothing needs to change for you to be what is already complete - and where

"The more you unconditionally relax

the more you Have."

Later John spoke of the numerous times throughout the day when we are naturally a little bit like our own Being, but how we tend to take those moments for granted, such as when the sun first hits our body when we walk outside, or when we stand under a hot shower, and even when we eat food or drink something.  He likened those pleasurable experiences in the body as being something like, "Mmm."  As we begin to notice such moments with greater awareness, we can see how they do indeed point to something deeper that we Know is occurring within and we can begin to see that we can have that kind of response, without those outside triggers:

"All it is,

is you being in your heart.

The quieter the 'Mmm' is,

the more powerful it is."

Mmm... yes!  And the greater the pressure, the more we need to relax into what is so ok within; into that tiny little bit we Know the truth of in our heart - in a sense, it's moving in the opposite direction to the pressure.  That's what life's all about if you're an advocate of the Truth and John's teaching - it's the only way home - to relax, to open and soften, to be in that most tiny, most quiet, so lovely Mmm...  All unseen, so known, and so other than this world...

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti

Dying to the Illusion

On Sunday evening John gave a wonderful talk at Knowledge College when he spoke of being what you know in your deeper levels, at expense to your self and followed through all the way into the level of your person...

"Your deep opening to what you know

is your initial movement into oneness;

awareness returning to being one with knowing

- at any cost."

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"As you remain in the depth of that opening

everything that comes together may feel

like you in your self are coming all apart

But in you remaining together;

awareness and knowing being one,

all of the aspects of your self, 

conscious and subconscious, come together."

He went on to speak of how this real and deep coming together is a profound disturbance to the conscious self and that, "It's the end of your life in an illusion."  As the subconsciousness becomes revealed our whole relationship in how we have known our self dies and is replaced by all new deeper streams of our own Being...

"Your relationship to what you perceived as reality

based on your conscious self dies.

It's the end of reality and life as you've known it."

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"Control, by way of separation;

you separating the aspects and the levels of your self, is over.

There's new wondrous control that is absolute.

Awareness controlled by Knowing.

It's movement is Love.

Illusion passes away

and your Being gets to have everything that's yours.

Because it is all of it, it all becomes One..."

It was truly a stellar talk and John went on to speak of how accustomed thought and feeling on the level of the self becomes replaced by "what thought and feeling is like when your Being has it."  This wonderful deep turn around within, coming about by our complete response to what we most deeply Know the truth of whilst the subconsciousness comes up into our conscious self, is what enables our Being to take control.  For sure, this is a time of unprecedented change on this planet - and we get to be a part of it!

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti 

Be what you Know and don't let go

Dear ones, sorry that this week's post comes to you a day late - I actually forgot!  In addition to my own art practice, I also work a day job and it's been pretty stressful at times this week.  Although the experiences I've recently gone through have not been pleasant, I learned such valuable lessons.  For sure it's easiest to be and do what you Know within that's all deeper than the conditioning of the accustomed self and this world when life is relatively calm - but when the pressure is strongly on, whatever is not like one's own Being is going to come up.  That is actually beautiful and what life's all about - just the experience of it is awful!  The best part was when I hit something like rock bottom (on Monday) and, realizing how far from home I was under the weight of all that pressure, I just let-go of everything I'd been in; all that I'd been hanging onto and trying to make right and the whole situation.  In such a kind of rock bottom letting-go I was, in a sense, risking a lot on the surface.  The extreme circumstances and pressure, whilst leading to a lot of tension and unpleasant feelings within, showed me so beautifully how far from home I had gone, until there was only one thing left to honestly do - what I Know.  The practicalities of that meant that I risked losing what I was so tightly hanging onto, but in letting-go I remembered my real love and my real treasure and realized more deeply and more practically even, how to truly live my life; from where and what to live my life - no matter what!  Such an opportunity and such good learning!  Horrible to experience though!  Makes it all pretty damn clear I have to say, once again, more deeply and obviously real to me, what to let go of and what not to let go of ...

There is only time to be and do what you Know and don't let go.  Then you don't have to go through such horrible experiences (the valuable feedback calling you back Home) .. Seeing what we are mistakenly believing and holding onto (as if it's valuable when we know it's not at all) and then letting that go, returning to being altogether more simple and sweet and with an open heart, in the face of any circumstance - come what may - simply because that is what is true.  Letting go of a dishonest way of being, even if the whole world seems to be that way, and returning to a clean and clear way of being, our real love within .. 

In letting go of what doesn't serve and holding hands only with what is true ... the relaxation, the ease, the peace within ...  Simply be and do what you know - and don't let go!

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti

Learning to live, in Love

The College of Integrated Philosophy or as I like to call it, Knowledge College, is such a cool place to be - primarily because there is so much real learning on offer there.  It's a different kind of learning for sure; not the kind that is first practically useful in this world - and yet, strangely enough, in applying this most other kind of knowledge, absolutely everything benefits..  Simply put, being around John and his teaching helps me to live from the heart, to relax under pressure and to come from what is deeper within than the conditioning of the accustomed self.  In applying what is learned in Knowledge College in one's daily life, so much changes for the better, and it happens all behind you ... It's the most wonderful and golden teaching, giving unprecedented opportunity to really and truly live ...  And on Sunday I got a particularly good seat in the evening meetingand there was so much light coming from John - wow - with such light also being a kind of knowledge, and even a kind of real food ...  such nourishment - all beyond this world and yet coming in; being received and responded to and rippling out ...

Dear ones, it's been a hugely busy day and as such it's a shortish post today...  the new website is still almost ready to launch - and life is good.

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

Keep calm and sparkle!

The title of this week's post comes from a glittery pink travel mug I recently bought - and it's good advice in an increasingly stressed out world.  There's definitely been opportunities this past week for heeding such words of wisdom, as others have seemingly been a bit mean to me ...  When stuff like that happens, it's about not letting any reactivity take hold for long and in that, the sooner I start opening and softening the better.  It's clearly all an inside job; there's no use waiting for others to behave differently - staying open and living from the heart is what it's all about.  So although I dream at times of living in an eco village surrounded by the beauty of nature,  I'm staying put and taking every difficulty as an opportunity to open my heart, to soften any hard edges which show up and to go deeper within; to stay true...

Loving what we Know and letting go of any surface story or spin, is what puts us rightside up again.  The opening and softening points us to that deeper Knowing and brings balance to the system; it brings in the calm - a little bit deeper and we can even begin to quietly sparkle ...  

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

Super Spring 2016

The Spring Seminar is quite something this year, with John's transmission downloading awesome new light coded information and at times there's also been some excellent talks.  On Saturday he spoke of how the principal way awareness goes out of balance in the seen is the same in the unseen and that in a similar way the subconsciousness within the self is largely hidden from the conscious self.  He spoke of how this imbalance causes awareness to believe that choice is it's own, not realizing that it's ways are being largely controlled by the subconsciousness - and how these veils are being removed.  Later in this same talk, John spoke of how we don't want to see the powers of illusion that have form in our selves and that the unseen veils on multiple levels in our selves and outside of our selves are all pathways that actually belong to our complete function as awareness, from the deepest levels within outwards.  He spoke of how we grow from the innocence of a baby to stepping into conditioning and separateness, obscuring our real seeing, resulting in a painful nervous system...

"We are here to be all of the unseen.

As we move into these strange and awkward forms,

that don't represent what we really are

- love in the midst of varying degrees of hostile environments -

for what we are as Beings, it's perfect.

The perfection of that is compromised

as soon as we leave our innocence

and buy into the illusion.

We are here, as the unseen,

to radiate into the seen.

As we live this, in innocence,

our strange forms develop and change

to match the unseen that we're being.

As that occurs, there is an increase

of the profound resonance in this world of hope."

The whole talk from John during that meeting was wonderful and, whilst such a talk can seem like a lot to comprehend in its entirety, the most essential part of his teaching is utterly simple: opening and softening within and directly relating to the tiny little bit you know the truth of in your heart - and to continue in that, in the midst of everything that's yours, until you don't live as anything else ...

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti

Yes

Have you ever noticed how often you perhaps say 'no' out of habit?  It's worth bringing more awareness to this and then noticing the subtle different alignment within when we change from that instant 'no' to an altogether sweeter 'yes.'  On Sunday afternoon John spoke of this when he said:

"Whilst saying no is a habit,

   saying yes inside is contagious."

Although the 'yes' may feel less powerful, it's usually a more true response; putting you more in your heart and less in your conditioned self...    I loved it when John went on to say:

"Let openness and softness

replace the loyalty in your self

- you won't miss the loyalty."

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"You, opening and softening

unconditionally in your life,

returns you to innocence.

It sets you free from your self and your past.

Where there is innocence,

instead of being loyal to your self,

you are free."

Free to love, free to fly, free to say yes!

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti

From the Chaos to the Calm

In this complex life, the Truth we know within is so subtle, so simple and so good, yet when life delivers challenging situations our experience can feel chaotic and stressful, reducing our love of the truth within to something barely discernible.  Yesterday John spoke of the experience of being what you Know within chaos, saying:

"It's like flying through your subconsciousness

with a spider line,

without breaking it."

As life triggers patterns of stress and disharmony, the 'little bit we Know is true' is always there - and it can increasingly become your 'go-to' no matter what.  Later in that same meeting, John spoke about apprehending Truth, saying:

"In apprehending, begin with warmth and then

add fire."

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"The warmth and the fire is

.. love."

Yes it's all about Love - opening and softening, adding warmth, coming from what we know the truth of in our heart, leads us out of the chaos and back to the calm.  Amidst all the complexity that's the simple part - and for the rest, it's about simply doing what we know is good, even if that makes us feel a bit vulnerable.  Such as reaching out to a friend when you need someone you can open up to - and that's about love too isn't it?

Before I sign off today, a word about the new website - it's taken way longer than I thought, but yes - it's still coming, soon! 

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti

The Speck, the Energy Centers & Living Rightside Up

I loved Sunday afternoon's meeting when John spoke of the energy centers that we have and how they (like everything else that's ours) belong to our Being and not to the conditioned self:

"Your energy centers

are what you have as a Being

to come into seen  form.

The way that this world moves

the energy centers need to be configured

to the conditioned self.

The energy centers then energize illusion,

instead of your Being,

all the way through into your person.

Your energy centers,

configured to your deeper levels,

because you use them to respond

in your life to your deeper levels,

is the beginning of you being turned rightside up -

a little speck in this world living rightside up

- a change in this world."

In living from an open and soft heart and responding to our deeper levels within, we naturally bring our energy centers into alignment with our own Being:

"It introduces a different context for movement,

which turns into the movement of your Being

through your energy centers

instead of the movement of your self.

When you live from your heart

that naturally includes your other centers."

To move in the delectable streams of our own Being, we'll be happily swimming against the streams of this world, moving from the seen into the deeper unseen where, paradoxically, everything becomes, though unseen, so real ...

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti

Making it Easy

Contrary to popular belief amongst most Earth plane dwellers, we are in fact powerful Beings!  As such, being aligned with what we know the truth of in our hearts is not so difficult, even when we're experiencing something which feels difficult on the level of the accustomed self (our own or another's).  Opening and softening is the way, and is the only way, Home.  And it is easy and the more we acquaint ourselves with the loveliness that we always have within (yes always, because it's True you) the easier it gets to say yes to openness and softness of heart being our walk, through all of life.  What I'm realizing is how wonderful it actually is; how this all works, how it plays out and how you don't get to enter your heart's knowing without paying the cost, making it all so real.  The cost is all that we've taken to heart as being something that defines who we are, a held onto egoic system of belief; and it's worth pretty much nothing.  Certainly not compared to the simple beauty of a rested, open and soft heart - and then the deeper levels, discoverable through that doorway of knowing in the heart, are ever more lovely for sure.  Here's some snippets for you now, from just over a week ago, (on Sunday 21st Feb) when John, in speaking of the difference between the accustomed self and the Being, spoke of that 'tragic split':

"It doesn't hold on its own

- so then really there is no split.

It's only where you sustain it,

where you need it."

He went on to speak of letting core-splitting honesty germinate in your person, marking the end of the split and you being all different in your life:

"It becomes most real

when you, as a person, bow into it

without a ripple of loss.

That's the end of the split

and of your personal life as you've known it.

If it isn't only easy,

you're making it difficult."

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"There is only one kind of surrender

that is full of love and ease

and that is when 

surrender is absolute."

If we are not coming from an open and soft heart, we are living in illusion.  Openness and softness of heart has to be there if we are going to live in what is actually real and true, it is an absolute must; it's science in a sense.  In coming from what is deeper within than the accustomed self, we open up to what we truly are and we see so much more.  That lovely space, all deeper than our accustomed self, that of our own Being within, is so much better able to handle all of life and all our difficulties; our poor little selves just aren't able to handle it when the heat is on  - and it is on, isn't it?  Come into your true nature and your true power, not with hardness and willful hanging on to what is old, but by a quiet inner unconditional surrender to that beautiful open and soft heart ... it takes you Home, easy.

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti