Happy Holidays & Having More ...

Happy Holidays!

Goodness me, I have been having such a jolly time, I almost forgot what day of the week it is! (aside from Xmas Day) - I hope you are all enjoying a  joyous festive season this year and my wish for us all is to keep Having More... I am referring to John's meaning (as I understand it) of that term as meaning to Have More of that nectar-ful subtle Goodness, the entrance to which we can find by gently softening within and finding the tiny golden door to what we know the truth of in our hearts... Yes, Having More of that subtle loveliness feels ever more inviting once I quiet myself and align with what is finer and ever-present ... 

Incredibly, the Winter Seminar starts the day after next! - on Thursday 27 December - and ends on Wednesday 9 January 2013.  It's come around so fast that I haven't had time to ponder what may be in store for us during this special time with John.  Although I do have a sense that it will bring an opportunity to Deepen in what we Know like never before. These days John feels so intensely beyond that I feel a bit like a speck of stardust on the coattails of a light-speeding comet... 

 But paradoxically, rather than hanging on, I fly better when I fall most completely into what is most effortless ... and my love for John - for what he brings and for where he takes me - means I'm all in...

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti 

The Evolution of Consciousness

Yesterday John sat at my table and it was so good to be in close proximity to him. It's like my cells start drinking, deeply ...

John spoke a little about dying, and in that, what I got from it was the opportunity that life brings; the opportunity to evolve.  Instead of dressing up, maintaining and parading around as a self what are you doing that is truly meaningful?  
Are you evolving?

As you may be aware, this coming Friday the  
21st of December 2012, marks not only the Winter (or, if you're southside of the planet, the Summer) Solstice, but it is also the end of the Mayan long count calendar.  My understanding of that is that it is a major turning point and marks the birth of a new higher consciousness on this planet...  
A big change is coming ...  
My sense of it for some time now is of a veritable shift to a higher frequency which this planet needs if we and it are to survive...

 Change must come and I feel that this Friday marks the point of no return; the tipping point, and if you've been feeling the pressure building up all year, hang on to your hats in terms of what's coming...  But really, leaving the jokey cliches aside for just a moment, if you know the difference between your accustomed small self and what is altogether different; a finer, much higher and lovelier order within, then you don't need to hang on to anything, you can, instead, soften in the midst of any sort of pressure and keep giving your allegiance to what it is now time to let be sovereign in your daily life.  

I don't get the feeling that this massive transformation of life on Earth is going to be pretty.  But what it can be is... so good, so healing and so cosmically profound.  What a time to be alive!!  In facing these challenges which lie ahead I am so grateful to have John de Ruiter to continue to guide us...  Sitting with him and opening to his transmission is such a help with the realignment of everything within.

Disappointingly the next dialogue with John has been postponed until after the forthcoming Winter Seminar - but it does give you more time to send in a question for him if you would like to do so, (simply post it in the form of a 'comment' below).

Blessings be to all this coming solstice and beyond, may we choose wisely.  Let's allow the old to die, it's never worked for us in over a thousand years (at the very least!) and may the openness and softness of dear beingness resume it's rightful place in us.  And from there, we can continue to move ever finer by the tiny little bit we Know the truth of in our heart.

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti  

Tardiness, time and temptation ...

Dear ones, I am sorry for the tardiness of this week's Post - oops, a day late!  
What can I say... time flies and life's been busy!

Before I forget, I want to mention that the wondrous Winter Seminar starts in a few short weeks!  It begins on 27 December and ends on 9 January and if you are tempted to attend all or part of it, do not hesitate!  For more information, please click here.

I have been enjoying some merging of my nights with my days for some months now, so that for some portion of the night - where clearly sleep is not an option - I deeply relax and do some exploring awareness meditations instead... This is often interesting both from an experiential point of view and also in the sense that a deeper learning is occurring...  So that now in my daily living, my subconscious is (finally!) getting the message (or messages) and I find that I am more relaxed and more able to hang out in what I Know and love the most as opposed to giving in to those ancient patterns of closing, getting uptight, worrying etc.  And I am also disinclined to being affected by others patterns.  This makes me altogether more available for what is more valuable ...

My next dialogue with John will be happening soon - and you still have time to send in a question!

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti 

Sailing Alone in my Room

I have this thing about wanting to be completely Home as quickly as possible and it is both something I love in me and also quite a cross to bear ...   But what I am beginning to understand is that, in spite of what I Know the truth of in my heart, (to use John's terminology), these pesky patterns of belief/perception and associated thoughts/emotions have a certain momentum and won't just lay down and die just because I so want them to ...  And I'm also seeing more and more clearly that the Real difficulty is when I have difficulty with my difficulties!   You can see that these two are interrelated ...  Whatever is going on in me that I experience as unpleasant or tiresome, I can always soften ... 

So it's ok, I'm going Home; my sail is up and my course is set ...  there may be high winds and storms which toss me about but I'll hold firm to that rudder ...  sure enough the storms pass and the sun comes out and again I'm on calmer waters ... and sometimes it happens in a single moment - ah, that subtle shift!  The point is that I am absolutely going to keep going no matter what ...  Those who resonate with what I say are, like me, living a relatively mundane life full of ups and downs on the surface, but on a deeper level, we are light warriors constantly stepping forward, stepping up, going beyond; transforming, transforming, transforming ...  aligning with the Highest Good ...  
And I wish you well my fellow travellers, you are not alone!

As always, please type any question you may have for John in the comments below this Post.  He is back from Israel now and with luck I'll be recording a new dialogue with him soon ...

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti  

Vigilance

If you're serious about living from what is deeper than the accustomed self, vigilance is going to become increasingly important ... at least that is what is currently on the menu for me ...

 On Sunday a questioner in the Chair spoke of a recent episode whereby he had been pretty much totally "out" of what he Knew ...  I could really relate because I very recently had the same sort of experience whereby it felt like I was drowning in strong and awful patterns in my self and it seemed impossible to return to anything deeper or softer ...    Quite unpleasant and disturbing ...                              
The questioner in question  gave the analogy of being pierced by an arrow and John replied thusly:

"The arrows find only the specks 

you give in to ... 

so then all of the arrows help."

- JdR 

Having previously spoken of my horrible experience to John, he had already helped me to see how I had allowed it all to occur by giving the patterns my belief.  

When I reviewed it, I could see where I had knowingly allowed my self to go its own way, so to speak, and that by the time I was proverbially drowning, I was in it way too deeply ...   So I loved that meeting and John's poetic and pointed clarification.  There is real power in seeing that I truly am "the hand that moves the glove."  
M y sense is that all this sort of thing (patterns in the accustomed self) is only going to get stronger by the day - if not the minute - so ... vigilance!  

And John's off to Israel for the three day retreat this weekend - if you're going to that, enjoy!  

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti 

Dearness & Oneness

John de Ruiter at the summer BBQ 2012

"Dearness calls you to beingness.  

Beingness calls you to Greater Reality.  

From within Greater Reality, the Calling begins."

JdR - 18 November 2012

The meetings at Oasis over the weekend were wondrous and I even got to sit in the Chair and speak to John from the heart on Sunday evening.

It seems to me that there is an increasing Oneness frequency coming to the planet and the big question is:  "What do you want to be one with?"    

What I'm noticing is the distortions of the self and its patterning becoming increasingly loud and awful and yet there is also an increase of what is Deeper and so exquisite within ... When a distorted way of being and coming from the self is what is uppermost, it is indeed a self-ish modality - with all of it's ensuing ugliness...   What might it look like if we all move from what is Deeper and Higher in us?  What might such Oneness of coming from that loveliness look like?  Really, something altogether different ... A different world ... 

As usual I've been wanting to charge ahead with what I Know is true and yet the self has continued to lag behind ...  John is great at reminding me - by what he is being - to be ever finer and in that, I know the importance of taking care in all the details.  The pitfall is to come from the self - whereas that subtle but-oh-so-real shift to what I Know the truth of in my heart naturally and effortlessly takes care of every little thing ... it moves in a real way with love.

In all this I am so grateful to John de Ruiter.

I am anticipating another dialogue with John soon so, as always, please type any question you'd like him to answer, in the 'comments' beneath this Post.  

John goes to Israel in a couple of weeks for what is sure to be a fantastic Seminar - from 29 November to 1 December - for details on attending this amazing three day retreat please click here.

Until next time,

Love,

Shanti 

Purity

John de Ruiter in Nordegg (August 2012)

For those of you who've not yet seen John without his beard - there he is, above.  The photo was taken earlier this year, at the Nordegg camping retreat in the Rocky mountains.

Last night the meeting at Oasis felt particularly strong to me and it was so helpful to be in John's transmission once again especially as I currently have a particularly deep distortion within which is under the spotlight.  When I look at John in the meetings lately, I see such purity in his face and in his beautiful eyes.  Thus I found myself  looking down at the carpet a few times as he looked around at the beginning of the meeting - which was most unusual as I love to meet his gaze.  But yesterday, dealing as I was with something so dark within, I found could not face those pure pure eyes ... 

O n the way home after the meeting had ended, I could still feel the resonance of that incredible Deep I'd just been sitting in and, although my awareness was still on the uncomfortable distortion within me, I felt simultaneously able to be much lighter in it ...  Actually it was more like the real 'I' was naturally lighter and brighter and, because it is not of that which is distorted or impure, I was more able to really be with it ...  

This miraculous being-something-else-in-the-midst-of-patterns-and-distortion takes care of the changes which are necessary for the little self to align with what is True and Pure.  Quite wonderful.

As always, please type any question you have for John in the 'comments' beneath this Post and there's a good chance it will be asked to him in the forthcoming dialogue.

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti   

The Priceless Value of Knowing

More than ever I see Knowing as the only place to be.  Not only the only Real and True and Good place to be, but - as life continues to up the ante pressure-wise - it's either stress out/freak out, get tight, get uptight, fight and fret . . .  OR  loosen up, relax, breathe, soften and align with that Greatest Love within; that which John so beautifully calls Knowing, before, in the midst of, and after, any pressure or difficulty.

I've experienced enough of both sides to Know the difference and in that, it's so clear that my deeper Knowing Self can handle pressure way better than my accustomed self.

All the pressure and difficulty really is a help because it makes it clear what I don't need to relate to any more.

what rubble?

I can always align with my true self in any pressure - and there's the integration process beautifully at work - quietly repairing and renovating within, aligned with the Highest Good for all, amidst the perceived chaos and rubble ...                                                    

I will be presenting more of your great questions to John very soon - so there's another podcast to look forward to ...

And a sweet treat for Edmontonians to end this beautifully pressurized day - 
a meeting at Oasis tonight!

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti

The never-ending stream of Things To Look At

I was speaking on the phone to a dear friend yesterday, who has known me for many years, and I mentioned a personal concern to her, to which she responded, "that's how you do it ..." Then she added,, "just another thing to look at ..."  and she made me laugh about it, which is one of the many things I love her for.  I told her of John's take on such patterns - to be something else in the midst of them ... Yes, that option is always available, and then I find I am half-way home, even though there may continue to be discomfort in my little self ...

It was lovely to see John's face on the big screen at the live broadcast from Germany on Sunday and I loved hearing his words of wisdom .  He spoke of valuing openness and softness of heart above all else in daily living and the other thing which stood out for me was when he spoke of having a warmly humoured approach to the self - as it learns to grow up - and that tied in nicely to my conversation with my old friend yesterday, because that's another pattern of mine; to take it all too seriously!

Before I sign off, another reminder to see if you have any question you'd like answered by John, and if so, to make the most of this opportunity, and send it in - simply post it as a 'comment' below.

Until next time,
Love
Shanti  

The Cutting Edge of Meaning

There were some lovely and deep meetings at Oasis over the weekend as John continues to move us all forward and deeper into what we all Know ...

"As awareness you'll be rooted in Meaning, Knowing,  

before there is any experience ...

It is what informs you of what is Real within anything 

that you experience.

You'll be deconstructing your own experiences

and building your own experiences ...

You'll be Meaning, creating ..."

JdR, 21 October 2012

Attending meetings with John is as precious as ever.  This coming weekend he will be in Germany and then at the end of the month he is going to Israel (and again to Israel at the end of November). And then, the jewel in the crown, the Winter Seminar, is here in Canada from 27 December to 9 January.  For details on any of these International meetings, or for more information on the Winter Seminar, please  click here.

As always, please type any questions you may have for John in the 'comments' beneath this Post.

Until next time,

Love

Shanti    

When words fail me

What do you write when words fail you? This is my dilemma this morning because yesterday evening I sat in The Chair facing John,  meeting him, and it was powerful to say the least.  It was such an event, that of course it is all I can think of to write about for this week's Post - but I'm struggling to describe it in a way that does what occurred justice ...

I had been putting my name down to go to The Chair for some weeks, including right through the last Seminar - so when I finally got to sit there, I was so ready, so thirsty.  When he looked at me - well, there's a discrepancy right there, because he doesn't just 'look' in the normal way people look - it is a piercing gaze unlike any other on this planet ... when our eyes met - I was immediately in a powerful vortex-like other-worldly journey with him.  I was so drawn in, drawn forward ...

As my heart began thumping I was pulled deeper and deeper into what was occurring, no thought in my head just a whirlwind of energy, taking me ... then as my heart gradually stopped thumping, there was a movement from deep within me moving out through my body to John and it had the sense or flavour of a deep longing.  Perhaps it was a combination of things but part of it was my deep longing for Truth, for what I Know John was coming from and inviting in me.  I rarely get emotional these days, but that was soon part of what happened because I began crying,  and then sobbing.  My sense of that was that it had to do with a deep opening in me.  Before I even locked eyes with John yesterday evening, my fervent prayer within had been to meet with him in a way that would be the most Good for All.  Yet this meeting with John was not to be about words; there was no compulsion to speak; there was nothing I could have said and yet the whole room was not far from my awareness. 

Once the sobbing subsided, I was left feeling so open and so deeply connected with John in the most intimate and immediate way ... I was so held by his benevolent power and mastery.  I was in good hands.

And then, it was reminiscent of my very first meeting with John in Canada back in April last year, as I once again marvelled at what he is, what he was showing me, what he was being and what he was doing - without moving, without speaking, without anything discernible happening on the surface at all ...

As my senses returned somewhat to something more normal (but I felt changed), I was ever so slightly shaking my head from side to side, just so awed by what I saw before me, by what I Knew, what I had experienced, what he had done with me, to me and for me ... and so grateful.  But I still could not speak, so I put my had over my heart and mouthed my words of thanks to him directly.  He held me in his gaze a little while longer, until I was completely - um, completed - that's how it felt - that something powerful, beyond words and mental understanding had most definitely transpired, and John did not 'leave' me until it was completed.

From the comments and hugs I received directly after the meeting ended, I was pleased to know that what had occurred had also powerfully and positively affected others in the room.  As one person said to me "It was so good."  Yes, it was so Good.

To end this week's Post, I want to encourage you - especially those who've not yet done so - to send in any question that you may have for John in order to be in the running to have it answered by him in the next dialogue.  As always, simply type it in the 'comments' beneath this Post.

Until next time,
Love
Shanti  

Let go and Trust in the Magic

The magical Goodness that is always here.  Magical in its unseen and other-than qualities, yet when you align with it, it´s oh-so Real.  And speaking of this exquisite golden goodness - what a Seminar.  Hallelujah.  Hallelujah for John.

There is a piercing never-ending never-stopping stillness ablaze in his eyes.  And to be in his divine presence now is so deeply good.  In a life full of pressure this Seminar has been a God-send. 

I`m sure many of you are also feeling the pressure and are perhaps similarly busy, but don´t pass up this resource of being able to send in a question for John.  

If you have something you´d like to ask him please keep it short and type it in the ´comments´beneath this post.

To finish, a tiny taste from this Seminar:

"Adversity feeds your present orientation.  It helps make stronger your orientation. 

Adversity has you drawing more deeply in what you´re coming from.  Adversity has you needing more resources so you´ll naturally reach into what you´re already coming from.  Adversity has your Reach increase."

JdR Autumn Seminar 2012

Until next time,
Love,
Shanti